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A compliment is always welcomed

K I’m in Malaysia feasting on fresh strawberries durians sweet corn very tender chicken dishes cakes tea steamboat usuals muruku cranberries crispy chocolates and a new found milk sweet

When I get back to SG and feb comes round the corner… I’m gna start on my monthly resolutions. Cannot take my lack of discipline la. Gna start on things I’ve been putting in delay for awhile.

Meanwhile I still feel a bit lost. Sigh. And homesick.

A fire in my chest, ears, head. Everything I do makes it worse.

38.9 oh god

Was Duerlebst, kann keine Macht der Welt Dir rauben

awkward

superficial, you won’t survive

worries, insecurities

cannot stop obsessing

messy

irresolvable

triumphant

loved

motherfucking tired

I thought talking to you clarified things and reminded me of the bond we share

you insist I’m messed up. Not denying but bitch please, look at yourself before you pass judgment on me

tomorrow is yet another escape from reality, yay me running away from problems as always!

No matter how many times you’ve disappointed me or let me down, I’ll welcome you home with open arms

Telling myself to harden is futile. I cherish my friends like that… I’m sorry. I know this makes me vulnerable and if I get hurt again I can’t blame anyone other than myself. It’s okay, I’ll wallow in self-pity if needs be

On a separate note I don’t know where we’ll go or how far apart we’ll be. But the months of absence has taught me that missing someone is not linked to the amount of time spent apart. Feelings are inexplicable, makes us all the more complex and interesting. Its the very essence of life that makes us succumb to the games laid out for us to play.

No good news

Missing SG, never felt this way on a trip :z

Hopefully good news awaits upon my arrival

takes two hands to clap

I’ve been trying for too long so it’s time to stop

bye to you, not literally, but maybe in my heart

I wna spend the last day of this year wit you, but it seems like a far-fetched idea

Nothing else seems appropriate nuff.

You just prove to me every friend is the same. Every man for himself.

Of course, your interests and needs are always prioritised above others. No really, no need to stop and care about others as well, cos its only you that matter after all.